Procrastination Station

 hi!

if you've stumbled on this page, you probably know me from somewhere.

i'm war and peace on SAYS, warandpeace on TDA, 'dilemma on RCR, and 'dilEMMA most other places. <3  I've also been various characters on PW, including Harriet Brunswick and Justin Emmerson, and various characters on OMA, including Harriet again and Emily-Jane Cummings.

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 Okay, so we had this G&T arvo at school today.  Usually, they're ridiculously pointless and the only reason we bother to turn up is because we miss two classes.  Today, however, I actually learnt something.  Well, learn is a strong word--I actually came away from it having discovered something about myself and having an objective.   I'm terrified of rejection and being judged, and the whole afternoon was about taking risks.  So my risk?  To be myself and stop lying and/or convincing myself that I agree with someone just to conform.  Worst case scenario is that everyone hates me, but...well, not much I can do about that then.

I'm finding it so hard, though. ><  For the first time, I'll actually have...opinions.  Scary thought.

I haven't written anything in here for over a year, so I figured...I better do that.

Ignoring the fact that I go back to school tomorrow, and I have a play review and drama questions due tomorrow...screw them.

...Good god the grammar in that last sentence was messed up.

What does one SAY in these journal posts anyway?  I'm sad that holidays are ending, and pissed off that I can't do work, and missing people, and hating that I feel dependent on people that, when you get down to it, I don't even know.  I love all you internet people, but...hell. ><

And to top all that off, I haven't read any of the novel I was supposed to finish before term started for half a week.

Upside?  I discovered a new band--Rush.  They're...different, and I could certainly say quite a few things against them, but I need to get out of my rut of the playlist I have now.  Coldplay, The Killers, Hey Monday, The Academy Is..., and The Getaway Plan are all I listen to these days.

Sigh.